Impatience at Advent
December 6th, 2007
I’m impatient. (Why is no one even pretending to be shocked?) The combination of my carpe diem attitude, wound up in ADD usually spells disaster for me to wait for something. Which is probably why this whole discernment about ministry process is so bleepin plagued with internal difficulties.
I’m recognizing, more and more, that God’s pathways are made clear… eventually. But I’m also seeing ahead further and further. I think its appropriate that I work on finally accepting some of these realizations during Advent. First, I need to wait out until March and the first draft of the ELCA statement. Then, based on that outcome, I regroup and focus on my next steps.
Of course I’m looking six steps down the road…
So I’m going to start even smaller. I’m not going to anticipate Christmas. I’m excited because this year I’ll get to worship at the church of my childhood on Christmas Eve. I’m excited to see the live nativity, to hear for the first time the “new” pipe organ installed after we left, to be in a space where I first felt God’s call on my heart.
In short, I’m going to prepare during Advent. I’m going to wait. And I’m going to not be impatient. Above all, if I tell myself this enough, it just might happen…
